Although we’re a few days into the new year, I have been reflecting a lot on 2012, & what, if anything, I learned. Despite some of these things make me sad, this is what I do now know:
Be true to yourself. Life is short.
I had some jobs either fall through, or begin then not be as magical as I thought they would be, last year. I really fretted over this & had many moments of feeling like a failure. But, if I stop & look at the big picture, none of these employment opportunities were what I really wanted to do, anyways. The more I devote myself to jobs where I am making money, yes, but un-happy, the less time I have to focus on what does make me happy.
Its OK if you’re not making the big bucks doing what you love.
Alright, I admit, this is a load of BS in a way! Yes, you should do what you love, but there are bills to pay & mouths to feed. But, I have had some chances this past year for sponsored posts at blogging, something that has truly become a passion of mine, as well as my theatre tech love, & it DOES feel good when you get a check doing what you love!:) Fun little tidbit: I fell in-love with theatre while volunteering for Guys & Dolls, & this past year, I had my first paid gig working on Guys & Dolls….coincidence? I bet not!;)
If he says he doesn’t want a relationship, he’s just not that into you.
This breaks my heart. But yes, if someone acts like they aren’t in a place in their life to have you in their life, their life is so confusing, they cannot do a relationship, blah blah blah, you will find out they are, lo & behold, in a relationship within a few months. Even though I figured this would happen, it still hurt to actually find this out.
When you’re sad, kick some ass!
All I can do is focus on MY life when something like the scenario above brings me down for a bit. If I were in a relationship, I wouldn’t be focusing on ME & the life I want to create. When I find myself falling for someone, it can distract me. Being in a relationship with just myself right now(even though, yes, sometimes I do wish I had a special someone), gives me the time to really think about who I want to be. Hopefully I will know when (or if) Mr. Right comes along.
Again: life is short.
National tragedies like Sandy Hook Elementary & the massacre last summer at the Batman showing, is such a horrible, sad, sobering reminder, that we should enjoy life. Because we just never know.
I prefer to keep Along Comes Mary on the brighter side, but this is probably the most melancholy post I have written. Thank you for reading. xo